It's been a while since I last spoke to you grandad, my life is going so well at the minute grandad I have a boyfriend called George I know your probably thinking 'I don't believe it another boy ey' but I'm pretty sure as your looking down at me you can see that he is decent and genuine, at least I can be myself around him which is a good thing. It's been almost two years now I will be 17 this year it only seems like yesterday when you was telling me to stop crying over a little cut that happened to be cut open, I miss our little chats and the times where we would go to yours to have fish and chips in the afternoon, I hope your doing well up in sky with your family, I will write to you soon grandad to tell you the new update in my life, i love you more than gummy bears xxxxx

No matter how long we wait for a sign your ok we still wait the memories of you keep you alive in our hearts those who were around you all the time and the majority of the time will always have such great memories that we shared and the tears that we shared.

I now hope you can be proud of me and my kids.

And those like mum becky holly lucy and simon that have been strong supporting eachother through everything.

Always in our loving hearts and smiling in our memories.

with much love Shell and kids xx

Heyaa grandad, lately I've been busy, I've missed you so much and I still miss you like crazy I always will. Christmas is coming up 'I Don't Believe It' Christmas wasn't the same without you last year and it's not going to be the same without you this year, although I know for sure you will be here in spirit, I wish you was here in person :') I love you so so so much Grandad and you're honestly deeply missed, xxxxxxxx <3

I think about you all the time, I try to pretend that i'm strong and able to cope with the pain of losing you. Without realising taking my anger out on Becky. I can't do it anymore grandad I miss you to much I need you here I can't bare to spend another second without you it's to hard. It's to hard to explain to everyone why I keep lashing out like I do. I love Bex so much and it isnt fair how I treat her. I need to find my own path in life and stick with it, I love you with all my heart xxxxxxxx

To my dearest daddy,

I just felt I needed to write to you, Im doing that thing again not sleeping. I close my eyes and you are there. Its not a bad thing dad honest, just I miss you so much. Every one says it will get easier but when dad. Holly's 16 soon, our little hol's she seems to have taken forever to get there bless her. Lu is doing well still your lil stink :) They are all doing so well as for summer you would be so proud, she's lovely little cutie. Im getting the garden done this year for you it will be nice to sit and have a cuppa with you again xx i miss our little chats, everyone used to say how do you two find so much to talk about, hehehe that was just us dad chat about anything and everything xx. Well dad I should go and try get some sleep, I dont think this emptiness will ever go dad, I do understand that it was time for you to go you needed a well earnt rest but it wont stop me missing you and loving you with all my heart.

Night Night daddy love you loads

Your little girl [fluff of pillows <3]

xxxxx

'I Don't Believe It'

It has been a year since you have passed away. It has gone so quick grandad I love you so much grandad; it is almost your birthday I will make sure I write you a little message wishing you a happy birthday. You will remain in our hearts forever grandad I just still can't believe you have gone. I miss you grandad i hope you have a lovely birthday :) xxxxxxxxxxxx

well dad that was christmas, i know you was with us x Happy New Year Daddy you are at peace now watching over us we all love you sooo much thank you for my shooting star on my birthday xx love you dad xx

Merry Christmas Grandad (:

hey grandad i miss you so much. It was really weird not having you their with us on christmas day i'm sorry for not writing a message on here for you on that special day, it was busy. Although you wasn't their in person, you were their in our hearts :) I love you so much grandad xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx x i'm so lucky to have you as my guardian angel. Forever and always you will stay in my heart xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xx

Grandad it has been almost a year since you passed. 'I don't believe it'. You're so special to us all grandad, although you're not here with us your still wearing the same hat you was last year even lucky wore it this year. I miss being able to talk to you about my problems and to be able to watch you do mr. bean impressions. If their is one thing i could change in my past i would wish for you to be back and for you to be cured from the illness you had. Grandad i think of you 24/7 you mean everything to me and i would like to thank you for all the times you made me smile and all the times you helped me through the rough times, even now when i have hard times i think of your advice you had given me before. I love you grandad i really do, forever and always you will stay in my heart grandad. It won't be the same this year at christmas as you have gone, but all memories will remain with us all. 'can i have current please, i haven't had that one yet', when i was told to write something from my past i wrote about you at christmas the day you asked to have current. I miss you so much my guardian angel i love you xxxxxxxxxx

RIP Grandad wish you could of met baby amy she is lovely and growing fast she is 6 months today and has 2 teeth, sits up on her own :) and is almost crawling. I miss you very much and always think bout you.

Ill never forget the things that made us happy and made us laugh. Like the year you couldnt open the celebration chocolates lol me and becky laughed so much lol.

I will keep the memories of last x-mas with you and the family it was a giggle. and like evry year we all made it special for you. xxx

To my dearest grandad...

Hi grandad, i'm sorry it has been a while since I last wrote a message, I am missing you so much grandad.. It is almost christmas grandad and its going to feel so weird this christmas as we havent got you as a person with us.. I know we will have you in our hearts. I may be busy most of the time, but i'm never to busy to think of you and our good times. Grandad your the worlds greatest grandad, It feels weird calling anyone else grandad because your not around. I used to feel ur warmth around me, but, recently i haven't felt you around, it is only now when I can feel warmth as if you are hugging me. I miss you my dearest grandad. Forever in my heart you will remain. I love you with all my heart :) xxxxxxxxxxxx Your my guardian angel grandad and I love you for it. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I miss you soo much!!

Summer has grown loads! She will always know who you are i promise!

I wish you were still here with us, i love you so much and miss you more and more everyday xxxxxxx

Dear my dearest grandad,

I am missing you every second of everyday. Having you not there on my 15th was heart breaking, but I realised you bought the sunshine on my birthday, you was with me after all in my heart.

I love you very much my grandad missing our funny times, such as ur impressions of the claw and Mr. Bean, good times.

You're in a much better place now grandad, you were fighting your illness for years and now your with your mum, dad etc.

Love you with all my heart

Your grandaughter Hollyxxxx

in my heart you will be for ever daddy, theres not a day goes by that i dont think of you, all the things we used to talk about and the laughs n tears we shared. live is so empty now you have gone but then we smile in your memory coz your at peace with nan n paps, aunty doreen. love you always dad big kiss and fluff of pillow your lil girl xxxxx