This is my 2nd Christmas without you & I miss you more than I did last year. You were always so fond of this time of year & it will never be quite the same without you. I really hope that wherever you are, you're surrounded by people & things that you love. Not so long ago I saw a shooting star & someone told me that it was someone sending me a Christmas kiss ... I hope they were right & I hope it was you? It looks like lots of the issues I've been dealing with recently are going to be resolved (one way or another) early in 2012. Please help me to make the right decisions to help change my luck for the better. Merry Christmas Sweetheart ... until we meet again ... I will love you forever. Your favourite girl, Sarah xxxxxxxxx

Another year has passed & another birthday has been & gone ... again I did the only thing I could to feel close to you ... I made another round trip to your final resting place & I believe you knew I was there. I still love & miss you so much ... & I think I always will. Happy Birthday Bunny, the love of your favourite girl is still yours forever XXXXXXXXX

Happy Birthday Bunny ... it doesn't feel real that this is now the 2nd time i've had to say that to you without you being here to respond.

My heart is with you wherever you are and always will be.

I will love you forever and cherish the times we shared together.

Until we meet again, with love from your favourite girl, Sarah xxx xxx xxx

I haven't written on here for a while. Not because I'm thinking about you any less but because I'm not quite sure what to say. Just when I thought I was coming to terms with losing you, my world seems to be tilting out of control all over again. I still have things that have to be sorted and i'm still struggling to find the strength and motivation to deal with them but for some reason, the crying has started again. There hasn't been a day that's passed without a moment of sadness but until recently, I seemed to have the tears under control. Now my emotions are all over the place again and I really don't know when things are going to become too much to bear. Please give me the strength to get through this. I love you and trust the belief that you will eventually help me get my life back on track. Forever yours XXX

Whilst eagles soar above the clouds

and rainbows span the skies,

I close my eyes and think of you

as teardrops fill my eyes.

My mind's still full of memories,

My heart's still full of love,

I'm hoping you watch over me,

from heaven up above.

Missing you just as much 12 months on.

Fondest memories and love always from your favourite girl, Sarah xxxxxxxxx

It's just over 11 months since I lost you & if ever i've needed you to be watching over me, today is the day.

This is going to be a tough day ... one I haven't been looking forward to but one that cannot be put off any longer.

If you are watching over me, please give me the strength to get through this and let it have all been worthwhile.

I love you ... more than ever ... please be with me today.

Until we meet again my sweetheart, Sarah XXX

Yet another 1st ... my 1st Valentines Day without you. For years you weren't keen on the whole idea of romantic gestures but in more recent years, I think you surprised yourself as much as you surprised me. It's been a strange day, seeing friends receiving flowers and cards from their loved ones and knowing that for the 1st time in years I am a single person on the 'day of love'. I miss you so very much and hope that you will always be my Valentine. My heart is yours ... forever. Happy Valentines Day Sweetheart, until we meet again XXXXXXXXX

2010 was my worst year ever ... 2011 is now here and I am without you. I have always enjoyed New Years Eve but despite the efforts of friends & family, this one didn't really mean very much. The thought of facing this year & every year without you is the saddest & most lonely feeling in the world. You are forever on my mind & in my heart. Until we meet again sweetheart XXXXXXXXX

14 minutes into Christmas Day & all I can think about is you. You always loved this time of year & everyone around me is trying to make it as nice for me as possible but without you, it will never be the same. I've done the best I can with the tree & the lights but that was always your speciality. You will be on my mind & in my heart this Christmas & every Christmas - I love you XXXXXXXXX

My dearest darling Dave, having just had a BIG birthday & with Christmas just around the corner, i've been really missing you. I know you never believed in the spirit world & all that goes along with it but i'm so glad I managed to get tickets to see Sally Morgan in Stevenage on Saturday 11 December. I took your picture along with me and Sally picked it out. I'm sure there would've been more to your message if i'd've been able to stop crying but it was lovely to know that you're still with me. I love you so very much and that will never change ... until we meet again my darling xxxxxxxxx

Tomorrow is the 27th November and I will have been without you for 200 days. There are still decisions that need to be made ... decisions that i'm struggling to make without you. I would do anything to have you back in my life ... to erase the last 12 months and all of the sadness that came with it. Your favourite girl needs you ... you should never have been taken from me ... it wasn't your time. I love you and I always will ... forever XXXXXXXXX

Apart from being 180 days since I lost you, 7 November 2010 was also your birthday. All I wanted to do was hold you but I couldn't. Instead, I did the only thing I could to feel close to you. I made a 524 mile round trip to your final resting place & I really hope that you knew I was there. There were a few odd things that happened during my short visit that make me believe you were with me but I really wish I could be sure. It was a highly emotionally charged day & the thought of Christmas without you is breaking my heart. I love & miss you so much ... I've never felt pain like this before ... if only I could turn back the clocks. Happy Birthday Bunny, the love of your favourite girl is yours forever XXXXXXXXX

At the time of writing this message, it is almost 3 September 2010 ... which would've been our 17th anniversary. Almost 2 weeks ago, we carried out your wishes and scattered your ashes in one of your favourite places. It was yet another tearful farewell and has left me feeling numb and empty. I'm hoping in whatever way is possible, you are able to be with me for our very special day. I don't miss you any less ... in fact I probably miss you more than ever and I would do absolutely anything just to see you, to speak to you, to laugh with you, to hold you, to kiss you. My life has been turned upside down and without you, nothing is the same. I love you so very much and I always will. Happy Anniversary Hunny ... until we meet again XXXXXXXXX

On Saturday 21 August, youwill've been gone from our lives for 102 days & we will be taking your ashesto the place you chose as your final resting place.

If only you could've stayed in our lives & not been taken from us. We had so many memories yet to create & my heart aches every time I consider how lonely life is without you.

It may be almost time for our final farewell but I'm hoping you will live on in my mind & in my heart forever.

I love & miss you so very much. Sleep well sweetheart ... until we meet again XXX

55 days have passed & i'm still struggling to accept that you're gone. I have so many things to deal with & the one person I always turned to for support & advice isn't here. I try to imagine what you would tell me to do when I need to make difficult decisions & i'm hoping I'm getting it right??? You may've gone from my arms but you will be forever in my heart ... I love you xxx

I miss you so much it hurts

You will be forever in my heart

I hope I will always be your favourite girl

Forever yours, Sarah xxx